Going rotten antidepressants?

In November 2008 I was put on anti-depressants. 50 mg of Zoloft. Shortly after that i developed a temper and was extremely stubborn. I hit my at-the-time boyfriend on three separate occasion. In early Jan we broke up, but still remained friends. In late Jan I had an episode where on earth I cut my legs with a needle. I had never done anything resembling that before and was scared in the order of it so I shoved the needle into my hip so I couldn't do it anymore. I was taken to the hospital and psyc ward and my dosage was doubled to 100 mg. The months that followed I spent almost every moment trying not to hurt myself and trying to push suicidal thoughts out of my commander. In early April I finally was shuffled to a psychiatrist who believed the antidepressants were cause a reverse reaction. I was put on Abilify for two months to stabilize my impulsivity as I tapered stale of the Zoloft. Now I am completely drug free, and I feel so much better in the sense that my mind isn't going crazy like it be. However, I don't feel like myself. I have no enthusiasm or motivation, and I'm constantly tired. It's as if I don't know how to live life anymore. Has anyone else had this problem? What can be done about it?
Answers:
Cassey put it within Gods hands, i mean it from my heart dear friend. I have put adjectives in His hands with no regret. and own found happiness.

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